Waking Up at 4:00 a.m.

I’m an early bird who prefers to wake up between 5:30 and 6:00 a.m. For the past month, I’ve been waking up around 4:00 a.m. without being able to fall back asleep. I’ve been through this spell before. Thankfully, all things come to an end.

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Drunk On Sleep Deprivation

After a cold shower and breakfast of oatmeal, I began meditating. Within the first moment, sleepiness enveloped my body with abundance. I hadn’t felt like this while meditating all year.

Three minutes in, I noticed my eyes staring at a floodlight. I was lost in thought but unable to recall what I was thinking about. On a normal day, the pictures in my mind are as vivid as physical photos. This allows me to replay the mini-movie that my meditation session had been directing.

Unfortunately, today wasn’t a normal day. There was no rewind button. My mind was a blank page.

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